Sounds Healing Vibrations

        A year and a half to two years ago, my subconscious started to whisper to me.  It was hinting at a gender identity that not long before I would have strongly, even violently denied.  I had started listening to binaural beats and Solfeggio frequencies on YouTube.  I found that certain frequencies made me feel edgy and nervous.  Those were soundwaves meant to stimulate the body's production of testosterone.  I didn't like the way they made me feel and I would often follow them up with more soothing tones.  I didn't know it at the time, but my subconscious mind was already at work, trying to make me remember a time in my early childhood.  A time before I had to start acting like other biological males in my age group in order to make adult biological males (or, rather, one in particular) happier with me.  But, as they say, I digress.

    I got to thinking, if masculinizing sound waves make me nervous and jumpy, they're not what I need.  And, if they're not what I need... hmm...

    I started listening to frequencies that supposedly boost estrogen production to see if they would have a more positive affect on me.  Not only did they make me calmer, they made me happier, too!  I wondered, "What the hell is wrong with me?"  But, that's not when I started doing my research on transgenderism.  No... I had to drag my feet (and my knuckles) a little while longer.  At that time, I was still deep in the clutches of gender dysphoria, and all the psycho-emotional side effects that come along with it.

    There's a quiet power in sound - one that doesn't just fill a room, but sometimes fills a void.  Recently, I've found myself drawn back to the subtle frequencies of healing sound.  Not as a replacement to medicine, but as a companion to it.

    Sound healing - whether through Solfeggio frequencies, binaural beats, or the hum of a singing bowl - has long been used in spiritual and holistic traditions.  Some claim that certain frequencies, like 528 Hz, can "repair DNA", or promote cellular regeneration.  Now, maybe science hasn't confirmed such bold claims, but all I know is that when I lie back, close my eyes and let the vibrations wash over me, something inside me softens.

    And that matters!

    A transition journey isn't just about estrogen or testosterone.  It's biologically, emotionally, and spiritually transformative; it's about aligning the body with the soul.  In that alignment, sound has become a tuning fork for my spirit.

    I've found that certain frequencies help me:

  • Ease anxiety on days when dysphoria creeps in.
  • Sleep more deeply, especially during hormonal shifts.
  • Feel grounded in my body, even when the world feels dissonant.
    I wondered if my sound therapy would interfere with HRT, but a little research confirmed that there would be no conflict between the two.  If anything, they harmonize.  One works on the cellular level, the other works on the energetic.  Together, they remind me that healing isn't just about science, it's also about serenity.

    So... while I may not believe that sound therapy will heal my DNA, I do believe it'll help me feel whole.  In a world that often tries to fracture trans' lives, that's a kind of healing I'll gladly welcome!

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