Unwaivering

      A lot of smoke has been blown around in recent months concerning transgender people and their fabled propensity for violence.  Speaking (or, rather, writing) experientially, any transgender person who is on HRT and commits an egregious act of violence is rare due to the fact that the hormones give us a more balanced sense of self.  The result is that we're generally more peaceful and easygoing.  But, the numbers from the Gun Violence Archive, the Center for Disease Control, and the Bureau of Justice give a true telling of who perpetrates the largest number of incidents.     White men make up 31% of the population of the United States; 51% of all mass shootings from 1966 to present can be attributed to White men.  Black men, in the same time frame, are roughly 6.5% of the population and gave us 21% of the total of mass shootings.  Latino men, approximately 9.5% of the population, are responsible for 9% of mass shootings in the perio...

      There is a word that I keep coming back to lately.  Not just in my writing, but in my body and soul.  That word is sovereignty.  It's more than a political concept.  It's a sacred truth!     I believe every country is sovereign among other countries.  That no nation - no matter how powerful - has the right to override the self-determination of another.     I believe that in the United States, each state is a sovereign entity unto itself.     And I believe every citizen is a sovereign individual.     That means me.  That means you.  That means every transgender individual who's ever been told that they need permission to exist.     I don't believe the federal government should ever assume authority over the states.  I don't believe any state should assume authority over the individual.  And I definitely  don't believe any institution - religious, medical, legal - shoul...

       I often think about my transition, and how it's going; I'm sure we all do. I was doing so a little while ago and something occurred to me. I often see, or hear, statements from others on here about how their transitions are going, usually concerning medically, surgically, or socially. But, I wonder, what about emotionally and spiritually?      For me... I used to be fairly stalwart, but now my emotions are all over the place. The slightest negative remark about trans people, and I see red. The smallest compliment, and I blush, instantly. Cry? In the past 18 months, I think I've cried more than in the 62.5 years prior. If I'm sad, I cry. If I'm angry, I cry. If I'm happy, I cry. I expect to wake up crying one of these days.      I was raised in a Christian home. I consider myself to be a Christian still. I've been told more than once that "you can't be a Christian and be trans." To which I replied, "Telling a trans pe...

      The picturesque town of Scottsdale, Arizona become the scene of tragedy on a quiet morning in September.  The tragedy in question, of course, was the unnecessary and senseless assassination of conservative activist, Charlie Kirk.  Immediately, Republican voters started directing blame on the trans community.  Yes, it turns out that the "alleged" shooter, Tyler Robinson, had a trans roommate, whom some say was his "partner".  The roommate has been cleared by the FBI of any involvement in the act of the crime.  Still, many want to irresponsibly implicate an entire community of people on the actions of a few in the past.  As I said, this is irresponsible, and it is dangerous.     Let's be clear on this matter:  Implicating the entire trans community on the basis of a trans "partner" is both intellectually dishonest and morally corrosive.     FBI reports and press briefings made it clear that Robinson was living wit...

      Yesterday morning, I awoke at two o'clock.  I tried to go back to sleep, but the longer I laid there the more obvious it became that it was a lost cause.  As I laid there, trying to go back to sleep, my mind wandered.  As it often does, it began skimming over my transition, thus far.  At this point, let me tell you that I am not a social person.  I have never been comfortable in social situations and strive to stay out of such as much as I possibly can.  That said, you'll understand when I say that, socially, my transition has been very slow going.  So it is that I haven't had to deal with social confrontation, yet.     A scenario came to life in my mind:  How would I respond to a Christian if they were to ask me how I thought God must feel about me doing this?  I surmised that I would simply tell them my truth.  I had suffered, from childhood on, with gender dysphoria.  I didn't know what was wrong wi...

     We're living in a time when truth is under attack from Left and Right.  As a former Conservative, I used to look at the Left and be able to see the bullshit that comes from that direction.  But, I refused to accept that MY side... MY PEOPLE... might be doing the same thing to me.  A few years ago, I saw a shift on the Right that concerned me.  Before long, I saw that it was time for me to leave the party I had been a member of since I was eighteen.  I had to... I recognized that a change of bearing had occurred.  They hadn't changed direction, rather, they had shifted farther to the Right... dangerously far.  That's when I started looking at the platforms of the main two parties - the parties holding our country hostage while they play games with our freedom.     I don't want to get politically motivated on this blog. If that happens, I will most likely make enemies of most of you. I used to be a Republican. Like I...