Unwaivering

    Let me tell you a little story:      When I was about 14 years old, I was attending a week of revival services at my uncle's church in Farmington, NM. One evening, after services, I went home and went right to bed, as I had school in the morning. I went to sleep while my father and step-mother were still up, but was awakened later to a bright light. In the light, I could make out the vague form of a man. Everything was silent, but then the man spoke. "Give food to my dead," he told me. "What do you mean?" I asked. He repeated, "give food to my dead." "Lord," I argued, "if they're dead, they can't eat." With that, it faded away. I laid there thinking, "wow, what a dream." Until I realized I'd been awake the whole time.     I've always taken this encounter to be a calling from God, but it never made sense to me... until recently.  A few years ago, I had thought of this incident, and it came to me that wha...

“ If anyone causes one of these little ones who believe in me to stumble...” Christ gave a stark warning of retribution and, yet, churches, filled with self-righteous pseudo-Christians, weaponize scripture like stone, bruising souls, rather than healing them, in the name of holiness. I have always believed that ones faith is the sanctuary of their soul. But sanctuaries have become battlegrounds because, somewhere along the way, the Body of Christ mistook uniformity for unity and created theology that wounds the very souls it should be healing. Especially when those souls are LGBTQ+. The harm didn't come from God – it came from those who spoke wrongfully in His name without knowing, or understanding, His heart. What if churches cause individuals to stumble? Romans 14:13 urges us not to set stumbling blocks in the paths of others. “Let us not therefore judge one another anymore; but judge this rather, that no man put a stumblingblock or an occasion to fall in his brother'...

       Tell me something: Why is it that the "land of the free" is so uncaring about minorities? I think I know why. I think that societal minorities represent a shift that frightens you deep inside. Transphobia doesn't allude to the idea that you're afraid of trans people. Homophobia doesn't allude to the idea that you fear homosexuals. The thing that you fear... what makes you quake... is the question, "what becomes of society if you no longer control it with your Euro-Christian zealotry?" This fear... this phobia... is very much akin to that which is responsible for racism, sexism, and various other "isms" throughout humanity's checkered history.     Just because you read something in a book that you have been told for thousands of years is the actual "Word of God" doesn't mean anything except that you're a fool. The early Christian church picked what manuscripts they wanted to use when creating the Bible for th...

         A year and a half to two years ago, my subconscious started to whisper to me.  It was hinting at a gender identity that not long before I would have strongly, even violently denied.  I had started listening to binaural beats and Solfeggio frequencies on YouTube.  I found that certain frequencies made me feel edgy and nervous.  Those were soundwaves meant to stimulate the body's production of testosterone.  I didn't like the way they made me feel and I would often follow them up with more soothing tones.  I didn't know it at the time, but my subconscious mind was already at work, trying to make me remember a time in my early childhood.  A time before I had to start acting like other biological males in my age group in order to make adult biological males (or, rather, one in particular) happier with me.  But, as they say, I digress.     I got to thinking, if masculinizing sound waves make me nervous and ju...

      Several years ago, I wrote in a different blog.  At that time, knowledge of my true gender identity was blocked from my conscious mind due to childhood events.  (Said events can be read about in earlier installments in this blog.)  At the time, I was a staunch Conservative.  I wouldn't even consider the veracity of any policies that even leaned a little bit to the Left.  What I didn't realize at the time was the impact such a mindset could potentially have on the liberties of my fellow Americans who saw things in a different light.  Every Democrat I know has pretty much the same mindset concerning leftist ideology.  I see these mindsets growing further and further apart all the time.  As they do, we see America's economic advantage fade, and personal liberty and individual freedom fall by the wayside.  Our economic advantage began fading in 1971, when Pres. Richard M. Nixon (R) took us off of the Gold Standard.  He d...

      When I came out as a trans woman, I was met with love by some, confusion by others, and silence by many.  I realized quickly that many people don't understand what it means to be transgender - and worse, they're often misled by myths that do real harm.     So, I'd like to set the record straight.  Here's a list of common statements made about trans people - some true, some false - and why it matters to get them right. Trans people choose to be trans. False:  Being trans isn't a lifestyle or phase - it's who we are.  No one chooses their gender identity any more than they choose their hair color. Gender identity is the same as sexual orientation. False:  Gender identity is about who you are.  Sexual orientation is about who you're attracted to.  They're separate, and both are valid. Trans people can be straight, gay, bi, or anything else. True:  just like anyone else, trans people have diverse sexual orientations....